When I was younger and I used to plan my wedding, the colors, the flowers, the car we would drive away in it was mostly for fun I didn't actually care that much about the superficial part of my future wedding. I did make lots of lists of the qualities in a man I wanted to marry. That list was very important and Brian had met every requirement and most of the things I just wanted.
I also had a list of names I wanted for my kids. Brian quickly nixed those unique names and we settled for more classic traditional names that we both love. As well as names I planned the order of my children. I wanted a boy first to protect the kids and lead the way. Then 2 girls so they could be friends , share things and hang out with. Then I wanted another boy so the first one could have a friend close in age also. That was not necessarily where I wanted to stop but I felt after we would be even and what ever we had bout be an extra joy.
Well in January we were delighted to find out we were expecting baby number 4! We told the kids a few weeks later, after they started making up reasons why I was so sick, We heard them talking to each other saying things like,"Mommy is so sick she is gonna die" "Mommy has diarrhea" "Mommy is sick because moms get sick of babies" "Mommy just needs to throw up" As you can see we needed to talk with the kids and reassure then I was ok and we were happy to have another baby.
They are very excited and talk about the baby a lot. We are all very excited and are even more excited that this baby will be a boy! We will be even! it is perfect! I am so thankful to be a mother and love my kids very much. Motherhood is my work and my glory.
